Sometimes, life amazes me. Well, it does more often than not. I see so many things around me that make me marvel about life and about the creations of God. I’ve never been much of a reader, but more of a daydreamer and space-offer if you consider that anything. However, today I began to read a book that so far has convinced me into already living a more educationally dramatic and knowledge filled life. And I’m only on page 9. Well ding-dazzle. Haha. In this blog, I will be expressing thoughts that have recently been flowing through my mind because of desires to do more and from recent conversations that I’ve had with my wonderful roommates and others.
In the book “No Doubt About It” by Sheri Dew, there are wonderful quotes that have filled me as I’ve read. One quote is from Maxwell Anderson’s play Joan of Lorraine quoted by Joan of Arc: “Every woman gives her life for what she believes. Sometimes people believe in little or nothing, nevertheless they give up their lives to that little or nothing. One life is all we have, and we live it as we believe in living it, and then it’s gone.” As President Gordon B. Hinckley stated: “You are good. But it is not enough just to be good. You must be good for something. You must contribute good to the world. The world must be a better place for your presence. And that good that is in you must be spread to others.”
Life for a woman has many different views to many different people. To stay home. To go out and succeed dreams beyond any man’s imagination. To simply do and be what they simply want to do or be. I am not a feminist. But I am not one to think that the only path for a woman is to simply wait for one man to come to her and to have a Brady Bunch life. If this was once the ideal living for a woman, it certainly is not anymore. And this needs to be said to those of you who have no idea what else life holds for you except for a husband. You are beautiful! You are strong! And YOU have more potential to see life for everything that it is.
Now I would like to back up for one moment. As I said before, I am in no way a feminist. Well, at least I am not to the extreme for sure. I believe with all of my heart that one of the most important goals in life is to be married and have a family, whether in this life or the next. I have no plan to grow up single and strong all alone with no offspring. I also have nothing against those who see family life essentials such as FCHD, sewing, cooking or any other ‘housely’ items as their life goals to be a bad thing. For they strive for something. They yearn for something. They burn for something that they can control in their life. To be married you control whether you are available or not. But for it to be right here and now, completely, is neither in your hands nor mine. Unless you have an arranged marriage- which sometimes I secretly am envious of, but don’t think I would prefer.
I believe we all have a special purpose here. What that is, is different for each and every one of us. A problem I see right now are those who simply yearn for something that may not be in their life right now. But it is so hard!! I know! Oh if I could only express how much I understand your pain of wanting to be wanted. Waiting to be needed. But you are! Perhaps just not in the way you are hoping and expecting to be.
As I look back at myself two years ago, I am a different person. I see life differently, I feel differently. In a time I thought I knew it all and was the top of myself, really I was still on the incline progressing to the top. I still am not there. As I wait for this person that I will hopefully marry and be with for all time and eternity, I will keep climbing the mountain. Finding more about myself. And learning more about the career I desire to have and the lives I can change now. The people who need me now. The things that call for me now.
We do not need to find the next world wide discovery, or travel to Africa to build houses (which are both wonderful things), but to be here- right here right now- and to find how to be of worth to ourselves and those around us, is a huge key to helping ourselves. We are great! Yesterday I made cookies and shared them with those around me. A few days before that I made cupcakes for some girls’ birthdays that I know. Today I went and visited that rest home and spoke to an elderly lady (who gave me wonderful advice to wink at the boys to show them I’m interested. She assured me this would work). I do not say this to boast for myself, for really, sometimes pushing out scares me. Especially when it’s something I’ve never tried. But only for the few moments of uncertainty, and once you try, you find new about yourself. The things you can do, are as simple as baking, helping out, or singing for someone. I plan to do at least one service thing every week. And as I look back on my life, I see that I did push for something. For something I believe in is love, hope, and charity. And right now, they may be all I can give to the world, but like a snowball, it will grow. And the Lord has promised to help those who love their brethren.
What was all of this rambling for? Just to fill the page for my first blogging entry? Perhaps. To just rant out all of the crazy feelings of a delusional college student who’s brains are still melting as we speak? This could be completely true. But also, to tell those who think that they are no one that they are someone. To tell those who think they do nothing, that they do and that they can. And most importantly, to tell every single female that reads this that you are beautiful and are extraordinary in your own way and have the potential of what you believe you can do. So please, get out there and do it. Even if it’s going next door to do it. Just do it. Don’t be overwhelmed. For life is happy and chill. Breathe it in. Soak it in. Live it girl.
